im very disappointed on the number of comments i recieved on the last post. that was pitiful guys.

the weird thing is though..i never get on this thing anymore. im a myspace whore..its kind of sad.

last week at school until christmas vacation! I AM VERRRYYYY EXCITED!

my step dad got a new job. hes working on the coast doing construction and stuff. he'll be gone for two weeks at a time and then come home for a weekend, so ill basically only get to see him twice a month. he left today, and i freakin FELL APART. i miss him already.. i love him more than anything..

on a good note, work was surprisingly fun today, which is very weird considering i was there for 7 and half hours on a freakin sunday! holiday hours..

well, its homework time.

.mary

Currently Listening From Under the Cork Tree By Fall Out Boy see related

long time..no post.

school started back. BOO. i had the BEST thanksgiving. it wasn't like most ive had over the years, but nevertheless, it was good.

went to jackson on thanksgiving day. it was FUNNN..i lovvvee my dad's side of the family. i just like to sit back and laugh at them. picture really country and really ditzy at the same time. FUNNNYYYYYY!

work is still going well..i really do like the holiday season at Reed's despite the sometimes rude and nasty customers. i know its the holiday season, but aside from what you may think, if your credit card or check is DECLINED..we're not TAKING YOUR FREAKIN MONEY! HELLO..ITS RETAIL! even more than that, its simply just a BUSINESS..dont get mad because you screwed your finances up and it was caught. i hate people. sometimes.

that made no sense but im bored and have nothing to do.

me, hols, aimee, casey, and marco are going to las margaritas tonight..yeah the one that casey is "banned" from. hes a loser because he thinks that just because he skipped out on a meal one time and DIDNT PAY THEM that he cant go back.. i mean what makes him think that?!

school is almost half way over. YES. memphis is that much closer. we have basically a little over four months and it will be time to say goodbye. im more than ready.

my boyfriend MATT called me today! lol. he wants me to go to san fransisco with him this summer and can you say HELL YEAH!? mary wants to go SOOO freakin bad and MARLA said she could so MARY will be on her way if everything falls through! MATT..YOU'VE GOTTEN MY HOPES UP SO YOU BETTER MAKE IT HAPPEN HOME FRY!

that is gonna be the TIME OF MY LIFE! me and matt in Gay Capital, USA? FUNN!

ahhh..this has been a GREAT day. just one good thing after another..and last night i was informed that JOHN MARTIN is coming back to reed's for a while during the christmas season. can we say HELL YEAH AGAIN!? yesssss.

ok, im gonna quit being a loser and stop this right..

NOW.

.mary

this weekend went by way too fast. ughh..

friday night i went to the game with holly. it was fun, but too friggin' COLD!! it was my last game to go to as a student at Tupelo High. it was pretty sad, but i got over it.

saturday i worked in the afternoon, and then i went to the play at the high school for theater. damn those critiques. but the plays were AWESOME! i lovvveddd it! they did such a good job! amber scott CRACKED me up..oh my gosh..she was hilarious! "shes got it bad.." LOL!

then today, i worked and came home. it was a pretty good weekend..one of the best ive had in a really long time.

casey williams is mean..just to let you all know. but hes my homeboy. he loves me..i know he does. lol.

yesss...thanksgiving break is NEXT WEEK! but the final draft to our research paper is due FRIDAY! AHHH!!!

well i think its time to bid you all farewell.

ok, i will NEVER say that again..i promise.

later, yo..

.mary

you dont understand the full intent of my plan..

you really dont.

got my ACT score on the internet last night. i made a 21. i figured that was ok since it was my first time taking the darn thing. gotta make better in feburary.

O K K K. rough draft of research paper is over and done with. THANK GOD. it makes things so much easier. i just need to perfect it. that shouldnt take much. sorry for bragging but i kick major ASS at writing research papers at the last minute.

i need a hug.

good night my love.

.mary

you know what? i didnt win. and i hate what you're doing.

i would tell you exactly how i feel, but i dont even get time to talk to you, even when you tell me to call YOU.

im fighting a losing battle. and its more of a battle with myself, not so much you. and its my fault that im doing this. casey, you're right. you're so totally right.

im tired of hoping and im tired of wondering whats gonna happen or if you're gonna totally just up and change your tune one day. ive finally decided that its not going to happen. just pick up the pieces and move on. im better than this. many people have tried to tell me and some people have even gotten mad at me for it, and its really not worth it. i feel like i lost a part of one of my best friends because of this situation. maybe not, but thats what i feel.

i didnt want to feel this way, and i let myself do it.

tomorrows another day though.

im sorry..